My little cousins (5yo and a 4yo) have come to stay with us for a while because their mother can't look after them. I look after them so my days are spent in the world of children. I run around with them, forget to eat because I'm so busy making their meals. Then once they're in bed and my parents and sister are away I binge on everything I can find and purge - no change there. But there definitively seems to be a different pattern to my days. I have to get up so early so I usually binge around midnight and then stay up a few hours because I always find it hard to sleep.
I feel if I could only sleep well I could be all better.
I learnt today that skipping is probably one of the best exercises and I'm going to try and do some every day.
I have this plan for when I go back to university. My plan is to have melon for breakfast, boiled down tinned tomatoes with herbs for lunch and then brown rice and boiled veggies for tea. I can't wait but now I don't have the time, energy or freedom to be a perfect little girl so I'm just starving all day and b/ping in the evening. I'm such a perfect role model.
My week of camping and hiking went really well. I was around people the whole time and the outdoors and vigorous exercise I think did me a lot of good. I had dried apricots and very plain and simple ham sandwiches in the day and then a vegetarian meal in the evening, which I had very little of because of my discomfort at eating in front of people. I'd eat slowly and seeing as we were serving ourselves in front of everyone I couldn't take very much without feeling like a fatass.
Sorry these posts are so irregular. Hopefully, I'll be on the road to skinniness before long and then I'll have lots to say all the time. At the moment I'm just to tired too fight not to b/p. I need time in the day to plan what I'll eat so that I don't end up bingeing and the food in the house at the moment is just so unreliable that I can't seem to plan at all.
Tomorrow I will try harder (oh there's a phrase I say daily).
Anna
